As usual, I was coming back home from my Office in the metro yesterday. After de-boarding the metro at my station, instead of taking the e-rickshaw, I decided to go by walk that day.
It felt slightly odd at first but few steps on my way was all it took for me to get comfortable. I took the familiar path. The children were playing in the park forgetting all the worries of the world, completely engrossed in the moment. And all of a sudden to my utter disbelief, I found myself locked in a trial room with big mirrors on all the four walls.
For a moment, I could not make out if it is a dream or a reality - am I sleeping or what? And then I thought someone must be joking with me.
And then out of the blue, I heard a voice whispering to my ears, "The mirror in which you will see your true self will be the door to your liberation."
I was stunned!
So many questions were now perplexing me - how did I get here? Am I sleeping? Whose voice is this?
This was becoming unsettling. I started panicking but to no avail. So, I tried to calm my nerves and attempted to find out the door disguised as a mirror to find my true self.
I looked in one direction and the mirror showed me my own image of being a son and I saw the memories of me playing with my parents flashing in the mirror. I felt so joyous, so I thought this was the true me but the door didn't open.
I looked in the second direction and the mirror showed me my own image of being a husband and I saw myself laughing and giggling with my wife. I was so happy, so I thought this was the true me but the door didn't open even then.
Then I looked in the third direction and the mirror showed me as a friend and I saw myself camping with my best friends on a hilltop having an adventure of a lifetime. I was so ecstatic, so I thought this was the true me but the door would not budge.
Then despondently, I looked in the forth direction and the mirror showed me as a Government Officer and I saw myself giving a speech in a conference attended by foreign delegates. I was so thrilled and proud of myself, so I thought this was the true me but to my utter despair the door still didn't open.
I was now dejected, confused, perplexed, bewildered, disoriented, and almost on the verge of feeling miserable. I had no clue what to do now. A thousand and one thoughts were racing in my head now. I felt like my mind has become a dirty river and I just wanted my mind to stop and become a clear stream.
So, hopelessly and without expecting to see or be anything, I closed my eyes to give it all a break. And all of a sudden I saw a bright light piercing the dark recesses of my mind. It hurt like heaven. I can not describe in words what I witnessed because it can only be felt.
And to my absolute amazement, the door opened and I was liberated at that instant.